Radio Silence

I have realized how dependent I've become on the Apple Mac. I thought that it was Craig's obsession, but now that this is our means of communicating with everyone we love, it has become mine too.
We left the cable at our hotel in LA, meaning that we couldn't e-mail, blog or check our google maps. It has been a hard 24 hours for the Borlases... Thankfully we managed to buy a new cable at a nearby Apple store and we are back online. I know how much things have changed because previously I would have been very disparaging (Craig might even say heartless and cruel) about the need to make an immediate trip out to get a cable. Today, I was first in line to get out of the door.

Evie went out of contact today too. The whole experience has to rate as one of the most horrible 5 minutes of my life. We were having a fantastic time at Sea World when we managed to miscommunicate about who was looking after Evie. I went to change Barney's nappy, Craig went to get the buggy. Both of us thought the other one had Evie, and it was only when we met that we realized that neither of us did. She had run off after Craig, but missed him. For two minutes I remained relatively calm, whilst we searched frantically. After that all my poise went to the wind and I began shouting for her and at everyone else, while my mind raced ahead to all the possibilities.

When she turned up, mildly troubled, but mostly excited by all the fuss I felt so incredibly grateful and gut wrenchingly aware of how much I love her.

I know pretty much anyone could empathise with both of my experiences (perhaps they might see the Mac issues as a little over the top..) and would have some of their own to add in. It makes me think about how much we need to be connected. There is something in our humanity that cries out when we are cut off from relationship. Somehow it seems we were never meant to exist alone - it feels wrong, unnatural, painful.

I'm glad.

I should also mention that we were on the beach yesterday and it was warm and beautiful. I like San Diego in December.